My Dark Castle

Sitting alone in this darkness 

 

Wondering…

 

When will it come? 

 

It runs through your mind too 

 

Doesn’t it?

 

Be truthful.

 

Don’t make it seem like I am 

 

The only one expecting it.

 

10 minutes have passed…

 

Nothing!

 

30 minutes…

 

Still nothing!!

 

2 hours?!!

 

Now that’s just unfair!

 

You all know this is unfair to me!

 

To us!

 

To you.

 

Must I wait another life time 

 

Before it comes?

 

Are you asking me what it is?

 

Are you for real right now?

 

You are kidding right?

 

That you know not what I speak of.

 

Ok! Here it goes!

 

I speak of a thing 

 

Companionship. 

 

Not to be left alone in this darkness

 

By loneliness 

 

And promised a life to share 

 

Laughter, joy, may be even love 

 

And be left to rot 

 

In this consuming darkness

 

That sucks at my soul 

 

Like a dementor

 

I see joy all around me 

 

But can’t experience it 

 

Because loneliness lied to me 

 

That it would leave me.

 

And allow a companion dwell 

 

With me.

 

Fill that void 

 

And make me feel wanted 

 

I have been a fool my friends 

 

To trust again. 

 

because nothing has changed 

 

So I crawl back into the darkness 

 

And wear my crown as King again 

 

In my darkness… Crossed-leg again.

 

A smirk on my cheeks.

 

At least, here I am safe.